First Day at University

Monday 20th September 2010


First day at university was fantastic and gave me a real sense of purpose, I eagerly anticipated every sentence and sentiment that left the course tutors mouth, not being satisfied until I heard the next tidbit of information.

My mood has been very jubilant and my step fortified with confidence, this is the beginning of a new era in the life and times of me, yes that’s right me! I can not believe I am living my dream, the buildings overwhelm me with their grandeur and beauty.

My reservations and fears have now subsided and have been replaced by longing and anticipation. I expect the best from this new venture and intend to give nothing but my most premium efforts. I can not flirt with failure or mediocrity I must excel as this is the path I have chosen and my portal into another existence and better way of life.

The propinquity I feel towards this place its people is something I have never felt before and I am truly thankful that the universe has smiled down on me and blessed me with this most cherished opportunity.

I am extremely grateful & thankful

Family Ties

Laugh as though today is the first & last day of existence.
Smile so your face hurts
These are just a few of the things we take for granted and need to prioritize.

Dance until the soles of your feet are on fire,
Sing as though your life depends on it.
The sound of joy is universal and needs to be heard by all.

For happiness is infectious and free so should be given in generous and plentiful servings. With a side dish of understanding, hope & gratification.
Share with all you meet even those deemed undeserving.

The power in each and everyone of us to touch another persons heart is unrestrained.
Its raw, natural, healing & beautiful.
The time has come to remember that we are all one.

Love like there's no tomorrow, support & cherish all living things.

We are family and connected by the power of love so lets strengthen the bond & make it unbreakable

Changes

Comfortable in the tower of me,
Finding strength and conviction in the real person I want to be.
No longer conforming and pleasing others.
I've set my path and and my journey has already begun.
I'm vitalised in my new discovery I thrilled and about to embark on self discovery fun.

Whilst the sun sets, my star is rising.
The futures bright and myself I'm surprising.
As I'm realising if things need to change, I have to be the catalyst.
No one to hide behind.
This revelation is bliss.

So onwards on upwards I shall travel,
Learning more about me, and finding clues I need to unravel.
Moving at a pace designed only for self.
No longer afraid of what I'll find.
This journey is providing me with peace of mind.

Low

I'm tired, I'm weak & despondent.
With every step I take forward, I seem to fall back further behind the starting line.
This so called life is draining me, eroding my faith & belief systems.
Trust has left me desolate & alone no longer able to see, I'm blinded you betrayed me.

The silver lining is out of sight & out of reach.
I'm waiting for the hurt to ease & the pain to cease, but it just grows stronger.
A cancerous growth, swallowing up every morsel of good hiding in the cracks & crevices.

Running on empty with no fuel in my tank, yet driven forward by responsibility, when I just need it to end.
selfish maybe but an alluring way out, no noise, no drama, no one running their mouths.

Sleeps calling but insomnia is on the attack, I want to rest, lay down a final time & never come back, but I can't.
So onwards & forwards until lady luck remembers me, I hopes she hurries because right now I hardly recognise who I'm supposed to be?

Restless

I feel, cold, empty & alone.
My mind is racing but is blank.
My heart is hurting but is numb.

I'm restless, but feel exhausted.
I'm haunted but am at peace.

The inner turmoil is mounting and my grip is loosening.
I have space but feel suffocated.
I want to scream but my voice has deserted me.

I running at full pelt but still standing still
I ache all over but the pain is comfort.

Everything remains the same but is constantly changing.

amazing

If you've been looking for love in all the wrong places, its most probably because you've not fallen in love with yourself yet?

Understand & know yourself only then will you be able to accept love, because you know love.

Life teaches & its your duty to learn its lessons.

The first lesson is to know & love yourself.

Your amazing never forget that & give others the opportunity to see it.

Forward

I can feel the heat inside me expanding.

Its getting hard to breathe but I'm not scared.

I'm holding my breath in anticipation f what might be.

I'm taking a risk.

Its a matter of watching the clock and the clock watching me.

Awaiting life changing news which will start my new journey.

I'm alive with expectation and motivated by choice.

I'm now the artist of my destiny.